Wednesday, 27 November 2013

It's A Hard Road

I jumped on the train
I left this old town
I escaped the rain
I'm no longer down
The wheels start to turn
My worries are gone
I have lots to learn
About the trail that I'm on
As I look around
I see my new friend
I know I am bound
To travel till the end

The train it did slow
I'm in a new place
The moonlight does glow
On my tired face
It's time for me
To try and find a bed
It's time for me
To rest my weary head
Morning is here
There's sorting to do
I'll sound sincere
With my goodbye to you

It's time to move away
I'm not satisfied
I've spent many a day
Finding a place to reside
There's a town on my mind
The train I will get
Sitting at the station
The future is set
I feel anticipation
I'll travel south and I'll travel north
I'll travel east and I'll travel west
I just want to find the road that is best.

Sunday, 13 October 2013

Being confused :(

Being confused is all about staying puzzled and baffled all the time. Confused people are the ones who irritate and trouble the maximum because they have no well-defined way of operating. They have lots of ideas and plans in their mind all the time and cannot function with only one at a time. More the ideas, more is the confusion. Confused people are never stable. They always keep switching from one working plan to the other and can never stay fixed with some idea or plan. Super-confused people are always irksome and irritating. So as to avoid confusion and to avoid being confused, keep yourself focused and let your mind think in only one direction at a time. It has been rightly said by our ancestors that too many cooks spoil the broth. So, the crux of the matter is the hallmark of highly confused people is that they keep on vacillating all the time and their mind is never thinking of one thing at a time. Keep your ideas short, crisp and limited. Think limited and stay happy. This methodology will avoid you getting into a confused state. I'm just one of those girls who doesn't know what she wants. Doesn't know what she needs. Doesn't know what she truly believes. I'm just one of those girls who wants to make everyone else happy. I don't care if I feel crappy. I'm just one of those girls who looks like they have it all figured out, but really doesn't know if I'm doing anything right.

Saturday, 28 September 2013

Changes in life

Sometimes, our lives can change so fast that the change outpaces our minds and hearts. It's those times, I think, when our lives have altered but we still long for the time before everything was altered-- that is when we feel the greatest pain. I can tell you, though, from experience, you grow accustomed to it. You learn to live your new life, and you can't imagine, or even really remember, how things were before.

Friday, 9 August 2013

true love is worth waiting for....:)

Find arms that will hold you at your weakest, eyes that will see you at your ugliest, lips that will kiss you in both instances, and a heart that will love you at your worst. Only then will you have found your true love. True love is worth waiting for even if it takes a lifetime. Then in return a lifetime of love will be waiting for you.                               waiting for mine..<3 

Tuesday, 30 July 2013


Sometimes the world leaves you confused, stressed, broken down, and even suicidal at times, but you can't let the world get to you. You gotta fight through, and you gotta try your best to put a smile on your face. :)

Wednesday, 3 July 2013


You may meet a person and instantly know that you will be best friends forever. Other friendships develop over an extended period of time. In some friendships you may feel a sense of equality, while in others there may be a clear sense that one is giving more to the friendship then the other. There are no rules about how a friendship has to be. All friendships are unique and special in their own way.
Sometimes we have a friend and we sense that our souls are very closely connected. We know that the connection is above time and space. We know that wherever we are in our lives we will always remain friends. Even if we do not see each other for years we are able to pick up right where we left off. This is what people mean when they say friends forever.
Saying thank you may be the two hardest words that friends share. We like to see ourselves as independent and not needing anyone's help. When a friend does something for us, it is difficult to humble ourselves by thanking them. Believe it or not, as strong as your need is to believe yourself independent, your friend may have an even stronger need to hear the words "thank you".
This one’s for u “RSR”. To you I'm always grateful for all that we have shared, for standing right beside me showing that you cared. The one I can keep the one I can trust. I compliment you, you compliment me, you put up with me when I am in a bad mood, and you never give me attitude.
And I am so happy you let me in your friendship world. :)

Tuesday, 2 July 2013

Cryptic Crush..:)

I wish i could tell u the way i feel about you

you stole my heart and strangely you are the one who is unaware of.

you have no idea you have no clue how much i think of you

I think of the moments we spent together and it's hard to accept  we aren't made for one another

I think of our little arguments and wonder how we could be so imprudent

I keep looking at your picture thinking one day you will be mine hearing your name is enough to make me smile

I stare at myself picturing how i look  by your eyes

It crushes me inside knowing that you are not by my side

Things wont be same if i would tell u how i feel and the pain of losing u, nothing can heal

Is this what love is or this is an infatuation?! you can't tell without being in my situation

Letting you go is the only choice i have, wishing someday u will come to know what my heart had.  

P.S - Written by my special friend, her name is ASH !! only for u dear...!!

Sunday, 16 June 2013


As I've matured... I've learned that one good turn gets most of the blankets. I've learned that no matter how much I care, some people are just jackasses. I've learned that it takes years to build up trust, and it only takes suspicion, not proof, to destroy it. I've learned that whatever hits the fan will not be evenly distributed. I've learned that you shouldn't compare yourself to others - they are more screwed up than you think. I've learned that depression is merely anger without enthusiasm. I've learned that it is not what you wear; it is how you take it off. I've learned that you can keep vomiting long after you think you're finished. I've learned to not sweat the petty things, and not pet the sweaty things. I've learned age is a very high price to pay for maturity. I've learned that I don't suffer from insanity, I enjoy it. I've learned that we are responsible for what we do, unless we are celebrities. I've learned that artificial intelligence is no match for natural stupidity. 

Friday, 17 May 2013

Lost In Tranquility

Across from the mountains,
A little house sits in the tree's,
I'm lost in tranquility,
As my soul tries to breath.

White clouds moving slowly,
The breeze a calm still,
I'm caught in the moment,
As my heart starts to heal.

A piece of me,
In the startling blue sky,
As I spread my wings,
My soul starts to fly.

I fly to unknown places,
Where pain and hurt once dwelled,
As the memories flow pass me,
My eyes start to swell.

Tear drops drip slowly,
Down my cheeks,
The wind wipes them dry,
And gives me some peace.

Soaring so free,
Over water and land,
My Spirit Guide gently,
Takes me by my hand.

He shows me what was,
And what's meant to be,
And why my life,
Is so important it seems.

A long soar,
Like the eagle high,
I bow my head,
And I start to cry.

Back on the land,
Across from the tree's,
I began to realize,
What healing means.

It mean's not to forget,
Let the past flow,
Of all the horrors,
One soul had to go.

To take the strengths,
And apply them to life,
Is a valuable lesson,
I've learnt this flight.

Alone in the sunset,
I watch it go down,
When I finally realize,
What peace I have found.

Friday, 3 May 2013

thanking GOD for his love

So Silent... So still
Listening for God's Will
Hoping I can hear Him
Speak to my heart.
What's really inside me only He and I know. 

I thank God time and time again
I thank God every day 
I am always thanking God 
Or always trying to thank God-
But who am I to thank God? 
And what does this really mean? 

I have been given so much
And without God all will forever be nothing-
I thank God because I know I will always need God 
I thank God because I fear God
I thank God because I truly appreciate what I have been given 
God has given me so much. How can I not thank God?

Friday, 12 April 2013

MUSIC makes me free

Music makes me happy
When I'm sad..
Music makes me laugh
when I'm alone..
Music makes me fell comfortable
when I'm not..
Music makes me strong
when I'm weak..

Music helps me appreciate
its message
Music helps me remember
those important people in my life
through its message
Music helps me unwind
when I'm confused

Music showed me how
beautiful life is
Music showed me how
meaningless is my life
if there's no

Thursday, 4 April 2013


All because of him.
Why did you lie?
Why did I cry?
Why did I try?
I don't like to trust,
And now you know why.
You hurt me bad.
You said u don’t love any one and u propose to my frnd
but what you said to me I guess it was all a lie.
We'll now I'm alone but I dont mind,
I hope you r happy.
We'll I guess this is good bye.
All I want to know is why??
Why I met with lier and dishonest people in life??
but now its like a lesson for me..:)

Wednesday, 27 March 2013


It’s the end-goal of everything we do. It’s why we pray, get married, go to college, slave through tiresome days at the office, endure heartache, buy into fads, and move through (the sometimes unbearable) woes of everyday life…  and more importantly, it’s why we care so damn much about it all. It’s why we are so hurt when our lives don’t become what we had hoped they would be. Its happiness, and it’s at the root of everything we desire. But what we seem to overlook is that happiness is not an elusive state of euphoria that we eventually stumble upon once all of our goals are fulfilled. Happiness is a choice, and you are just as capable of experiencing it now as you will be once your life looks as you think it ideally should.
Yes. Happiness is a choice. And you can choose it right now. Close your eyes and decide: today, I will be happy. Today, I will be grateful for everything I have, and know that everything I don’t have, I don’t need. See, the thing is, happiness is not contingent upon the next great thing you attain or accomplish. Ever notice that? You work hard for something, you get it, and then the joy of having it fades, just like everything else you have and don’t care about. And you’re on to assuming that you’ll be happy once you have the next thing. It’s how we’ve been conditioned: to work toward being better, richer, thinner, prettier, happier.
But it’s not to say that aspiring to be better is bad. The concept of growth is, in my opinion, the purpose of existence: everything is for the development of our souls. So what if we took the energy we put toward making ourselves appear successful and happy and put it toward actually being happy, right now. Just now, just because we’re alive, just because we’re here, and just because there’s something in us that the world needs. Because there is someone, somewhere, who loves us (or will love us) just as we are, right now.
Happiness, if you think about it, is the biggest conundrum we face. The pursuit of it is why we do basically everything that we do, and yet, none of that effort is necessary: it’s the simplest choice of changing our state of mind.
Choose to fill yourself with love, light and positive energy.You choose happiness. You choose what success is. You choose your family. You choose your home. (I personally believe it’s the person or place you always return to, but that’s just me). What you may not realize is that every aspect of your life is changeable, and more important, beautiful, just as it is… because you’ve chosen it. You know what you have to do now, and just like more often than not in life, you know what the right thing is. It’s just having the courage to do it. It’s easy to sit in your misery and feel sorry for yourself. It’s easy to fall into the trap of thinking that worrying about something will change it.

Saturday, 23 March 2013

festival of 'Colors'

The trees smile with their sprout
of tender leaves and blooming flowers,
Eternal nature with its transient expression.
Hails spring with ecstasy and joy!
Bewildering shades with so many tinge.
The land of beauty and greatness,
India, witnessing color of happiness and peace.
Nation come alive to enjoy the spirit
A celebration of color- Holi!
An experience of content, harmony and delight.
Holika burns amidst merriment and mirth.
Evil overpowered by love and devotion.
A festival to commemorate 'Ras Lila'-
an enduring love saga of Radha and Krishna.
Gulal - red, green, yellow and countless.
A day's canvas - a riot of colors.
Lively crowd running hither and thither,
Rainbow of colors, dashing from every nook and corner.
Disregarding their woe and despair fervent folks,
rejoicing at the marvel of colors.
A day filled with luster and gaiety,
A day to smear our dreams-
With a splash of vibrant frenzy colors.
Holi Hai! A spring of unbounded fun and frolic!!

Saturday, 9 March 2013

If You are Not The One

If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I'll never know what the future brings 

But I know you're here with me now
We’ll make it through 
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand

If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed?

If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you’re not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you’re not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don’t know why you’re so far away 

But I know that this much is true
We’ll make it through 
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you’re the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand

If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

‘Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away

And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
‘Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or right
And though I can’t be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand

If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am

Is there any way that I could stay in your arms

Daniel Bedingfield

Friday, 1 March 2013

Just becoz I Love stars ****

Above the clouds there is a star

A star that supports me take me as I am..

A star that never fades away...

A star that will live with me forever and ever...

A star that breaks my loneliness...

A star that makes me smile..

A star that enlightens my world..

Tuesday, 19 February 2013

Losing Myself to Find Myself

As I sit down to write about loss, there is a huge resistance brewing up in the center of my chest. This is a topic that so many of us find painful. As I know so well now, the most effective way to get to the other side of something we don’t want to face is to actually go right through it.
I recall a time several years ago when I didn’t know if I could do this thing called “life” even one more day. Looking in the mirror felt like looking into the eyes of someone I didn’t even know.
I lost myself.
Every day, I would go through the motions, doing the same routine. I often wondered what all of this was even for. I listened to the opinions of everyone around me, telling me what was “right” and “wrong.” I actually believed most of them.
I felt that I had lost everything. The light within my heart had gone out. I was exhausted. Then I collapsed. The world was dark.
I recall lying in the back seat of a car with faint voices around me. The darkness would take over again. In and out of the darkness I went. It was as if a battle was taking place within me. Stay in this world or move on to what I had been secretly praying for. Then the one voice that meant the most to me was heard: my little boy in the front seat, watching his mommy die. The decision had been made.
In that moment, I knew that I was not the person who I told myself I was for so long. I was not unworthy of love. I knew that I was put on this planet for a reason. It was time to begin to truly live.
Since that time, I have been on a new path. It’s a path that invites me to go within, to the deepest realms of who I am. There’s a lot of excavation taking place. There are so many layers of false identities and misperceptions to plow through. It’s not “easy” stuff – that’s for sure. But it is authentic, and that’s what matters to me now.
I had to feel as if I had lost myself in order to discover who I really am. The person who I had lost was only a façade. The “real me” has always been there, just waiting for the veil to lift.
What I know for sure is that loss is an opportunity to spread our arms wide open and invite Love in. When there is Love, we cannot feel alone. Rather than running from the pain, we can feel it and allow it to open our heart even further.
We can reach out and connect with others who are also riding the waves of this life journey.
We can go within and connect with that place that resides in all of us that can never be taken away.

Sunday, 10 February 2013

Happy Being SINGLE..

If we could see the miracle of a single flower clearly, our whole life would change. ~ Buddha

The life that we are bestowed with is truly a miracle. This precise miracle gets overshadowed with the contradictions that we live with. Contradictions like, the young want to be older and the old want to be young again; the dark want to be fair and the fair want to darken; the short want to be tall and the tall ones have their own problems. And just the same way, the single want to mingle and the ones with partners want to break free. Isn't that complicated enough? Well, let's take a moment and say aloud - "I am single. I am single! I AM SINGLE". Yes. It is  Acceptance and it is the key to great decisions. It is, in fact, very empowering. Look at you. You live your life all by yourself because you are capable of being single and independent. If you still hate your relationship status, take another moment to remember all the things you have dealt with alone.

I am single. No, I really am single and everyday I push my limits to achieve something better alone because I can't afford to waste my time waiting for someone who may or may not show up just so I could have the cliché happy ending to my fairytale because Disney says so. No, that is not the end to my life or your life for that matter. Life is living it, not waiting for it to be over. And why on Earth would I ever want to cripple myself to the aid of a person who sees me as nothing more than a baby that needs to be constantly mothered? A person like that certainly has some serious parental issues of his own to deal with


As I sit alone
With the warm sun on my back
I realise something’s missing
A part of me which lacks.

Could it be the trees,
Reaching for the sky
Or could it be the children,
Walking home, who pass me by?
Perhaps, I miss the birds,
Chirping sweetly above my head?
All I feel is restlessness
A part of me is dead.
I know now what it is.
Now I realise what is wrong.
It’s the feeling, they call solitude,
All my friends are gone.
Of course I know,
That as we grow,
We have to make our way,
We all must plot a different course,
To go by everyday.
I always thought my friendships,
Would be round,
Just like the moon
But you see,
I am not ready,
For it all to end so soon.
I miss their happy laughter,
Floating on the wind.
I miss the many secrets,
That circulate within.
The only way to keep,
Our friendships woven tight,
Is to keep in contact always,
And then we’ll be alright!

Friday, 25 January 2013

My Kingdom To Rule

I know I'm ignored,
But, I'll never turn red,
I'm patient,
I'm decent,
One day,
Surely, one day,
It will be my kingdom to rule,
They'll feel jealous,
Always being cautious,
Every move I make,
A plan they'll make,
I don't care,
I'm aware,
For how long?
Surely, I'm strong,
I will change their blackened hearts,
They'll have sweet-hearts,
Dead leaves will become fresh,
Mankind will start their lives afresh,
Vinegar will turn into honey,
They'll find it tasty,
The frowns will turn into smiles,
The hidden lies,
All the bad times will vanish,
They'll never be selfish,
Man will give away to the poor,
Even If they are poor,
The world will change,
It will change!
One day,
Surely, one day,
I will rule,
It will be my kingdom to rule...

My Heavenly Dream

Oh! sleeping is an endless pleasure, 
Which is an unlimited leisure, 
I dream about the fairies, 
Who fly above the valleys, 
I dream about the cool breeze, 
Which is surely a tension ease, 
I dream about the candies and the toffees, 
Which are shaped like cherries, 
I dream of the ocean, 
Which is like soft thread that is woven, 
I dream about the chocolates, 
Which are admired by the pirates, 
I dream about the endless pleasures, 
That have no effects of tortures, 
I dream of shimmering, glass palaces, 
That have existed there for ages, 
I dream of lush gardens filled with gold and ruby, 
They are surely very thorny, 
I dream of cute little babies, 
Who have very heafty bodies, 
There are many dreams that I have dreamt, 
But this is the best one that I have ever dreamt.....

Monday, 21 January 2013


“If I had to tell you how humans made their way to Earth, it would go like this: In the beginning, there was nothing at all but the moon and the sun. And the moon wanted to come out during the day, but there was something so much brighter that seemed to fill up all those hours. The moon grew hungry, thinner and thinner, until she was just a slice of herself, and her tips were as sharp as a knife. By accident, because that is the way most things happen, she poked a hole in the night and out spilled a million stars, like a fountain of tears.

Horrified, the moon tried to swallow them up. And sometimes this worked, because she got fatter and rounder.. But mostly it didn't, because there were just so many. The stars kept coming, until they made the sky so bright that the sun got jealous. He invited the stars to his side of the world, where it was always bright. What he didn't tell them, though, was that in the daytime, they'd never be seen. So the stupid ones leaped from the sky to the ground, and they froze under the weight of their own foolishness.

The moon did her best. She carved each of these blocks of sorrow into a man or a woman. She spent the rest of her time watching out so that her other stars wouldn't fall. She spent the rest of her time holding onto whatever scraps she had left.” 

Monday, 14 January 2013

My Secret Crush

 I think about you everyday
I plan out what to say
You have no idea, you have no clue
Just how much I think about you
I try not to stare, I try not to hide
I try not to show that I have always lied
If I had told you before
Perhaps you might not be the same 
I want to tell you how I feel
But the voices inside makes me hush
So I keep it down inside my heart

Hoping that nothing falls apart
Where ever you go, my heart will follow
But sadly, ever, only I will know
I hope my heart will never be broken
All because of my love unspoken 


These so called friends who let me down
Who made me feel as though I would drown?
My heart was broken, like a death to grieve,
These friends of mine, set out to deceive.
We had been friends for many years,
With much laughter, fun and tears,
We’d had good times, but that was past, 
Like many things they did not last.

They did not invite me,
The hurt they caused,
They did not ring or call, 
I think that just about say’s it all.
In my awful dark despair,
I really thought they would care,
A note, a card, or even some flowers,
But they were too mean to even use these powers.

They left me crying and so upset,
How could they, and yet,
“I’m alright” they probably said,
We don’t care, we’ll go ahead,
They carried on it did not matter,
They all went out for chatter,
No doubt to bitch, to stir and moan,
But they had left me, all alone.

When days were darkest, and self esteem so low,
Calls to Samaritans said it all,
They came through with flying colours,
These friends did not, that’s all that matters.
The pain they caused will not go away,
It cuts deep and strong to this day,
To put the phone down on me, screaming abuse,
To lie and try to cover up, Oh God, this is so obtuse.

I did not think I needed to explain,
But my questioning why? Fell in vain,
They tried to say I was over reacting,
They were going to invite me, but did not exactly!
How can people be so mean?
When I was always there so keen,
They did not deserve me as a friend,
I finally realized this in the end.

No peace in their lives will they ever find,
They let a friend down badly, not kind!
They bitched and moaned about each other,
This I will not miss, and don’t want the bother.
I am better, kinder, they will ever be,
Love, respect, they no longer have for me,
To me they are forever gone,
And in my life they no longer belong.
A dignified silence is all that remains,
I’m free now from all the pain,
I realize now they were not real friends,
But used me for their own selfish ends.
I really think they will, miss me,
But I’ve left them alone, and let it be,
I miss them not; it turns out in the end,
Be content with yourself, why defend?

Stand tall, be proud, have peace within,
It is only then you can begin 
To be content with the way you are,
Have faith in yourself your a shining star,
Do not let friends put you down,
Destroy your love; stamp it into the ground,
Do not put up with their moans and groans,
Settle this knowledge into your bones.

I am happy now and glad of heart,
That these friends and I are apart,
I’ve moved on now and left them behind, 
To each other they will never be kind.
To the rest of my life new friends have come,
Ones that you can really depend and rely on,
So take heed from my awful quest,
And remember, NEW friends really can be BEST.